tryna go from process artist to published artist
Been deep in it
leaning innnn processing the process
learning n unlearning too
with/in anciently futuristic space(s)
scaffolding worlds undoing assumptions
listening for real
to what the work is asking of us
gettin called in n out of solitude
arriving on the page n with other writing women who want to tell the Truth
scheming n scamming the institutions
I am thinking about what it means to Be a colonizer…the Spiritual disposition of it all…how it is not always so phenotypical
n about how I want to confront The Archive n my own n the practice n defense of True craft n who is able to do that n where n why
what should n shouldnt Be digitized
n if I even want to Be visible after experiencing the theft of so much swag n all the social confusion
I am thinking about my role as a multiply marginalized anthropologist by degree n as a library n information science + business school dropout in the so called united states (n what those words even mean)
it has Been a long often unglamorous n humiliating ride trailblazing online n in academia
one that fosters division n isolation by design
n pathologizes any whistleblowing
the last 5ish years have Been #pain to remain principled n True
I Seen so many things I never imagined I would have to
but still I write lol
n I have Been leaning innnnn
to my reasons why
n the acceptance that I am here to witness n Remember historic Times
that I have never Been alone
on the page we are clearly guided
thank you to livingroomstudio.org n+e et al for having n holding me
since last october this workshopping has Been a balm it has Changed me in the ways I have needed on this journey (of writing my first book ahhh)
I am lookin forward to this fiery year of taking action n dancing around completion
at the natural rhythm
in gratitude,
— lane
my arena board + Free pdf library
may we all get Free
& so it is + will Be.